Ever had an identity crisis? Or maybe that question is a little too sharp to explain. How about this: Have you ever struggled with accepting who you are? Like…you know who you are, you know what you are purposed to do, but you struggled very deeply with letting go of the fear of accepting that you are who you are and there’s nothing you can do about it. No matter how hard you try to stuff your 9.5 feet into someone’s 6 inch heels, the shoe did not fit. No matter how much make up you caked on your face, you still could not cover up those pimples and/or blemishes. No matter how much you tried to cover your face when you laughed hysterically, your gums still showed. No matter how much you tried acting like an extrovert…you still are “introvertedly interesting”. If you haven’t experienced any of what I’ve openly expressed, then welcome to my world!
Over the past month or so I’ve been in this season of Releasing and Receiving. I have released many things from my life such as spirits of bondage, negative ways of thinking, valuables, and I have even cut my hair. Now, I sense that I am going through the process of receiving. I have to learn to let go and let it be. Over the past 22 years of my life, I’ve learned that many things in life come naturally. What we think, produce, and live amongst gravitates toward us. We have the ability to choose what comes and goes in our life. Receiving – I have yet to fully discover this method. However, as I venture on I believe that I will come to a full understanding.
May I go on a bit of a tangent? I promise what I am about to say will conclude my point. On the other side of my life, for so long I have battle between our different views of God. The thought obviously haunts me because I know that there is more to God than religion positions Him to be. I am well aware that He exist in the physical, mental, and spiritual form of our existence. I am quite certain that He is everywhere around us. One doesn’t have to be Christian to claim that God is with them. I have had many encounters with people who were of no specific religion as if they were angels sending me a message of encouragement, confirmation, or a love offering. I know I’m going to step on some people’s toes when I say this. However, I do not care what other people think about my perception of who God is to me. Maybe this is why I find it hard to accept my identity – I care too much about what people think of me.
I have come to a conclusion that as long as ones principles line up with the characteristics of love, peace, harmony, purity, and acceptance of Jesus for who He is and what He has done, they are likeminded with God. Because He is love (compassionate), pure (clean), holy (set a part), majestic (infinite), the highest level of consciousness. He came down to save us from this world because He knew that we would be fed a bunch of lies and sins. Let’s keep it real. God came down in the highest form of completing the ultimate sacrifice that no one else has done. I make no apologies for what I believe in. It’s all in a matter of love…
As far as my identity goes, for so long I have battled with proclaiming who God is to me. This is very difficult for me to explain and I already don’t like expressing my deepest thoughts, but all in all, I must find my core. There has to come a time where I completely close portals of people-pleasing (or seeking approval) and just live in my being. I must let go and allow God to have His way completely in my life.
Finding my identity is one thing. But stepping into a new body is another subject. I must receive and accept my identity. Food for thought:
- Do I have a problem with accepting who I am? Possibly.
- Do I really struggle with accepting that I am a Christian who sees the spiritual side of life beyond the 66 books in the Bible? Yes!
- Am I really a Christian who is against eating animals? I sure am.
- Am I really a Christian that stands for holiness? Yes indeed.
- Did I really take a leap of faith and moved away from home to experience the fullness of God? Heck yes! So worth it!
- Do I truly accept Muslims, New Age, homosexuals, and atheist in love and peace? Absolutely.
- Is something really wrong with me? No.
As I am finding myself, I am discovering that this is who God created me to be. And if any Christian leader cannot accept my lifestyle of consciousness, then take it up with God. I know that He accepts me for who I am.
You may wonder why I am addressing Christianity is such a “hard core” manner. I am having a transparent moment because this is an area of my life where I have felt the most debate, condemnation, correction, rejection, isolation, division, and confusion. I have sensed this in my life as well as in the world. The problem with some believers in my life is that we do not live up to our own standards. We enjoy going to church, fellowshipping with others in our cliques, and then go live our every day lives (this is not the case with every Christian). I’m not downing my belief either. I’m standing out of the box to expose what we have been allowing to slide by for so many years. We are called to love one another, serve our peers, and share the truth; even with those who are abandoned mentally.
The very problem we face is fear. Fear is False Evidence Appearing Real. Fear is a characteristic that man produces within himself and it spreads like a virus amongst others. God did not create fear within us. There is no fear in love. For perfect love casts out fear (1 John 4:18). I once heard that God is love (1 John 4:8). If God is love, and if perfect love cast out fear, then fear is non-existent in God. If we are made in His image (Genesis 1:27), then fear is non-existent in us…
As I *inhale*, *exhale*
I release fear in the name of Jesus.
As I *inhale* , *exhale*
I receive faith by the power of the Holy Spirit.
As I *inhale*, *exhale*
I accept my identity in the love of God.
For I know that His love conquers all…
And He loves me beyond the end of the earth.
“We know how much God loves us, and we have put our trust in his love. God is love, and all who live in love live in God, and God lives in them.”
1 John 4:16 NLT
Always know that you are Chosen, you are Royal, you are Holy, and you are God’s Special Possession.
He has turned your darkness into light.
~* 1 Peter 2:9*~